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I don’t know what direction I must turn to, the future is just too hazy right now. And in reality, if the one I have envisioned for such a long time is not the path, I admit that I will be at a loss even though it seems like I have it all figured out. How can I get used to a situation I didn’t get to imagine myself into, and suddenly thought about it 2 months ago? I am scared, even though I seem to be calm and collected. Everyone knows where they would head on to by now, and even though at first it seemed like I would be one of those who would have everything set by now, I’m one of those left without any direction as of the moment.

I thought that today, I would be able to know the truth of where I would stand for the rest of my life, but after getting off the phone, I am still a day too early to know about where I stand. With another day for me to wait for whatever it is that would become of me, I relapsed into being shrouded and timid at the side lines. People would have thought that I was over and pass this tombstone placed in front of me, but sad to say, I’m not. Truly, I wanted to be able to acquire that sledge hammer to be able to bash the obstacle placed right in front of me that’s hindering me from reaching my goal.

In reality, the other path that I’ve been telling people that I’m willing to take, is a path that would leave a scar on me. Maybe not for the whole part of my life, but it will always be at the back of my head, face it, it was my dream. I know I’m not all that good, neither am I all that great, but at least somehow I know that I am good enough. But I guess there is a percentage that others would think otherwise, because no matter how you look at it, I’m not dangling in a very narrow and thin suspension that would snap even at the slightest movement. When people say that they are in a tight or sticky situation, this might be the summit of them all.

So I admit that I’m scared and that I am indeed lost for now, but I am thankful for one thing—that I have friends who will accept me no matter what happens. I have people beside me who worry about me and help me in the best way they can. I have people who encourage me to live on, and would never abandon me no matter what I’ve become. And it’s because I have true friends, I know that I can get through this, and no matter what the result would be, I can accept it, and cry about it on the shoulders of these people I can rely on during my darkest days. This is why I can face tomorrow, no matter it may hold for me, because they will be there standing right beside me, and would tell me that everything will be all right, because I will never be alone.

toolegittoolegitoquit:

Alam mo ba yung pakiramdam na ayos naman yung pinili mo kasi may mga napasaya kang taong importante sayo, pero deep inside naba-bother ka kasi alam mo sa sarili mo na hindi mo naman talaga gusto yung pinili mo. Sobrang daming tanong yung nasa utak ko, ang bigat sa pakiramdam.

Buong araw akong…

na-teary eyed ako.. hindi tayo magkakalimutan kahit anong mangyari. and kahit gaano pa tayo kalayo, walang kalimutan kasi friends tayo and we will always be there for each other no matter what. kahit hindi updated sa isa’t-isa, basta hindi nawala ang contact, we will never separate. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

No matter how long it has been, and even if I will change, I could never pull off anything right when it comes to matters that concern or involve that person. For some reason, when it comes to that, I get flimsy and I don’t know what to do. On normal occasions I’d know what to say, but with this person it’s always different. I get too emotional, too tense, too involved, too concerned—everything to its extreme.

I tried not to give too much meaning into it, but I find myself helpless in situations wherein I cannot control myself. But no matter how much people around me know how I truly feel, and no matter how much they tell me to say what is in my heart and mind, I can never do it. Not that I don’t want to say it, but I can’t say it because I know that I shouldn’t. It is not my place or a place I can ever be in.

In reality, it hurts, but it is something I have long accepted. There are times I have already attempted to let go, and it’s not like I didn’t try, but I always find myself going back. I have finally and ultimately concluded, that indeed, it is something I cannot avoid and set aside. Indeed, this person will always be a part of me, and of course, in the future, even if I know that it will never happen, I will always be the one whom that person can rely on because I will always love…

beatingtheredlight:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINIPER.I LOVE YOU :))))

Sa uulitin!! saya talaga nito :D

sav3mys0ul:

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yummy!! :)

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Cold places where there is snow. :)

Another tiring day. I feel like my brain has been totally exhausted from all the things that just happened today. Then suddenly I get reminded with the thought that it’s only MONDAY. Great, it’s only the first day of the week and I’m already nearing my limit. My eyes can’t seem to stop from drooping, but I have to stay awake because I’m doing our thesis inside a class where a report is in progress.

Somebody enlighten me, why do the professors always have to cramp up every single thing at the end of the semester? And take note, 4 of them all together! They assume that we could do everything and finish them all, well we get to, but we do it with full blast effort that we even neglect our own health for it. This is not what studying and training is all about. The world is harsh, but school is torture.

I know I’m supposed to be asleep now, but I just really need yo exhaust my anger and stress in this blog. It’s the only way I can relieve myself of this. Not like I can talk and tell anyone here about what I truly feel. The feeling of wanting to explode is there, but of course you wouldn’t. That would be a total waste of time, energy, and my life if I just suddenly vanished!

Okay, I’m talking nonsense already. I guess it’s time to go to bed and sleep. :-$ yeah SLEEP.